You may walk fast... I am not following you...

Is convention the most decent way of life? Its not like I want to break all social norms but aren't there certain things in life that should go just-our-way? Well, I am sure everybody has something or the other to list down in this category.

I too began doing it just yesterday and by this morning I am probably out to change everything around me!

As a child, I did what elders said was right and trust me, I was even once awarded with the title of "Best Girl" in my school :) As I grew, I grew, in all ways. My thoughts began clashing with those around me and I wanted to fly higher than the time permitted. At times, people have told me that I am impatient and I smiled. Deep within my heart, I wanted to say that they were damn slow and I was right. But then the learning of childhood Moral Science classes are not that forgettable either. And they buzz around in my head at just the wrong time. At the time when I want to hold my senior at work by his collar and tell him to shut up. Also when I want to tell that stupidly dressed up glam doll at one of those outlets to stop telling me what fashion is!

The situation is even worse when a "no-risk" type of a person takes up the task of explaining to you what life is all about and that too voluntarily! I know one such person and there is nothing more painful in my life. She doesn't let go any occasion of delivering a nicely framed and worked upon lecture and leaves me wondering if her day has more than 24 hours or she is secretly paid by someone for doing all this. Whatever the reason, I decided to get rid of her.

One evening she hopped into my room, dressed in a rainbow dress which sent clear signals of danger to me disguised as her oh-so-perfect mood. And this was the day! I sat up straight doing my hair and asked her in (I never insult a person as if intended to. Its just that I forget to apologize :) ) She began in an electrifying speed. All I could manage to get hold of was that she was going to US for some higher studies and thought was making her parents proud. Till this, I was OK with it. I congratulated her. Then she began.. what sets me on fire.. the reasons why I should follow in her steps. And all the crap began to come in. I decided to stop her and I did.

"Look! we are different people and have different ambitions. I am happy for you but it doesn't mean that I am unhappy with myself" I said firmly. "But think about your parents. Make them proud!" Pat came the reply and I was furious. "They are feeling proud of me ever since I was born." She left annoyed and I was happy that she and her lectures were going too far to come back for few years.

Time passed by and one fine evening I got a mail from her. She was marrying a "Firang" whom her parents didn't approve of. She went all gaga about the life there and promised me all help if I decided to go there.

I typed back a reply to her that read: You may walk fast dear... I am not following you!

Since that day, years have passed and I have been the same. I am not sure if I have always made people around me proud but at certain occasions, I certainly have! My life throws its tantrums and I return them too :)

I am happy with myself but make sure that I don't end up forcing my secrets of happiness on others. So...if you ever ask me... do so at your own risk!